Now firstly i need ya all to know that i am doing this journal for me. This is where i can write about how i work through my problems and thus finding ways to better my situation no matter how embarassing, scary, foolish or wise and smart that may be..I've been wanting to tell ya all whats been going on within me for lets say since march of this year when i broke off with`creativemikey (https://www.deviantart.com/creativemikey)I chose to do that for my sanity. we are just not compatable (any way he already has a common law wife of now...24 years which he does not share with ppl on d.a. he just pretends it isnt happening....)...as far back as november of "06 and currently the mess